| 26-happyhappyHAPPY |
[Oct. 23rd, 2006|02:36 am] |
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| |  cheerful | ] |
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| | Breaking Benjamin- Diary If Jane (Acoustic) | ] |
Ok my holiday mood is like here from god knows when, although i don't feel that raya mood yet. I'm so fucking sleepy. Last night was a blast! Hahaha went to east coast to play sparkles with my bros, and went back. And guessn what?! At 11.30pm my mum allowed me to go out again! Hahahaha so went to geylang till 1am?1.30am? Then headed down to Mustafa Centre, just for the sake of going a 24 hours place. Haha. And guess what did we buy there?? Hahahaa hair clips, hair bands, bangles, shaving cream and i can't remember what else! Oh my god so nonsense lah! We went there just for the sake of going cause we didn't wanna go home. And fuck lah they were inconsiderate to me, even though i didn't mind, haha, and fuck i am the only one going to school today lah. Fuck them all ponteng. And now i am soooo bloody tired and sleepy and tired and sleepy! And those stupid cunts are still sleeping now at 10.45am!! And i'm just rotting in the comp lab(again), waiting for 12.45pm to come before i rush home and catch some winks! And then later go raffles to buy my bag! Oh my goddd! Till now i haven't got my raya bag yet lah!! Rahs! Ok i'm getting more sparkles later! Haha don't know why but this year i feel so kiddy! Hahahaaa... I think i am going to geylang again later tonight, or should i say next morning? ahaha. Okok 12.45pm faster comeeeee!!!!!!! Rahs! |
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| 25-very randomly(((: |
[Oct. 20th, 2006|11:23 pm] |
I am sooooo fucking happy lah!!
(:
^%*%^$#$&^&^%%^$%^&(**^%(*&^#$#%4
haha!
Oh what the hell!!!
HAHAHAHA!!!!
Why?
1) i got promoted to year 3!! oh my god i swear i thought i couldn't make it. Ok here i come bukit batok(boohoo)!!
2) like finally WE'RE FREE FROM WRITTEN REPORRTTTTTTT!! which ate my wholllleeee bloody life and brain!!! We're now running in the last lap. Super tedious process. And heh! Akhtaar promised to give us a treat after fucking PW is over!(:
3) uhm i just need to fast for another 3 more days before cold hard cash start rolling in! bahaha!
4) going jaybee shopping again! although i'm not sure when. haha!
5) parents are not gonna complain anymore that they got me a laptop and new mobile for nothing cause i fucking got promoted!
6) i just cleaned by bloody room = no more nagging from mum about my room being messy and dusty and dirty, never clear rubbish bin
7) i had chocolate ice blended which i have been craving for like god knows how long
8) i finally know how to play that supid Suri Ram song =_=
9) i got my motivational song(:
10) weekend is finally here. the super hectic week is finally coming to an end. promotional results and WR dateline DONEEEEEE!(:
life come back to meeeee!
Congrats to those who made it to next year(:
And good luck and all the best to those who are taking Os/As very soon(: |
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| 24-i got promoted!!(((: |
[Oct. 20th, 2006|03:48 am] |
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| |  hopeful | ] |
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| | Enos singing "We Wish You A Merry Christmas" =_= | ] |
Ok just got back report book and well, i didn't do well, but well enough to get promoted. I should be happy i got promoted, but i don't know why i cried. Maybe cause my grades are super sucky, and i was really afraid that i won't get promoted. I texted my mum saying i got promoted to year 3, and she congratulated me, but when i told her i barely scrape through cause my mid years was super bad, she didn't even reply me. Rahs. This is a real wake up call for me and i need to study real hard and revise the past 2 years' work and be consistant and learn to prioritise and stay focus and blah blah blah. I will die if i do as badly as this for the As itself. I'm actually surprised that my class did relatively better than expected. Ok so i will still see those people next year and i have to put up with them for another year. Ok whatever.
Okkkkkkk so i got promoted. This calls for a partayyyyyy!!! Hahaha! That means my parents will allow me to have sleep-overs, stay out abbbbbit later than usual and haha! My basshhhhh!!! Hahahahaa!!!! Oh my god!! I can't wait lah! Yes, Kellyn's partay!! Can't waaaaaittt!! Buttttttttt also, i have to studyyyyy. I will ok! Wahahhahaa! Ok ok i should not forget about studies. (:
I lovelove my darlings!(: Azizul, you rock!! Hahaha... Way to go! You know what i mean... Heh(((:
oh ya i got the phone i want(: |
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| 23-not!! |
[Oct. 18th, 2006|09:17 am] |
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| |  beyond words can explain | ] |
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| | Daddy Yankee feat Pitbull & N.O.R.E.- Gasolina | ] |
Why blame me when it is not my fault that my parents are not highly educated, and that they can't get a job with high pay? Why is it that my mum makes it sound like all the bills they're paying are all mine? Why can't they trust me that i won't overshot my bills anymore? I just ask for a phone , that's all. And i'm paying it myself, i'm not even asking them to pay for me. All my other friends get handphones as their birthday presents, but look at me. My parents have never really gave me anything for my birthday. For my 16th birthday my dad got me this set of accessories, which i have never worn. Only that which i can remember receiving birthday gifts from my parents. And for my 18th this year, if they don't allow me to stay out till late i swear i'll run away from home. I'm just asking for a phone. And it's not like i have a million phones and i want another one. I want one because i don't have one and i need one. Ah forget it lah. I only have myself to blame for habouring any false thoughts or whatever. Let's forget it. I can fucking forget about it. Bye. |
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| 22-bye-bye only chance....... |
[Oct. 18th, 2006|03:09 am] |
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| | crushed | ] |
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| | silence in my room | ] |
It's now 3++am and i'm still awake. Wanna know why? Cause i freaking stay up to wait for my dad to come home and ask if i could get the phone. I was scared, and finally i plucked up the courage to bring my laptop to him and show him the phone promotion online. He didn't say yes or no. He just said if i want the phone go ask my mum to buy for me. Ok i am not sure whether that is a yes or a no. I told my mum before i told my dad, in fact i told her the moment i stepped into the house when i got home from school. She also didn't say yes or no, which surprised me, cause knowing her, she would say NO immediately when i mention i want a phone. Ok i am so confused i don't know whether they allow me to buy the phone or not. I really need the phone, and since it's cheap, why not? But one thing they may not trust me again cause each time i said i will control my usage, i didn't. But hey, now i've got no one whom i have to sms and call like 24/7, so i guess i won't use that much again?? Sigh... i really hope they allow me to get the phone.. And the promotion ends in two days time..... If not... then there goes my chance of getting a new phone.... I'll probably have not enough money to buy a phone without any promotion or discount...... I wanna kill myself can?? ......BYE. |
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| 21-again.... and again... and again..... |
[Oct. 17th, 2006|05:26 am] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
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| | PCD- Don't Cha | ] |
Fuckkk!! I wanna get the Nokia 6280!!! Oh my fucking god total rip off!! Only 99 bucks!! Rahss!! And i have three days to psycho my parents, mum especially. Ok i'll work on dad first. I have to get that fucking phone and the promotion ends on 20th. Fuck lahhhh!!! Knnccb!!! I want that stupid phoneeee!!!!!
Ok i'm in school now, and my group pretty much tidied up our WR already. I have been sleeping for the past three fucking long hours in this stupid comp lab, and i'm so frustrated cause i can't sign into ebuddy fuck! Total slack! And i sooooo wish i could just pack and go home now. And fuck ________ for being so sarcastic. I ate cause i have to take medicine, you dumb cunt! Stupid piece of shiat, just shut your fucking mouth up. Irritating bitch. Annnnd i started the day wrong, cause on my way to school on the bus, my right contact lens fucking tore while in my eye! I tried to hold on as long as i could but it was too painful, so i took it out on the bus itself, and since have been blind in the right eye. I'm still surviving the blind eye, and pretty annoyed. Ok this makes me wanna go home even more. And what annoys me eeeeeeven more, is that i wanted to call my dad and ask him to bring my specs down to school, but i don't have a fucking phone!!!! How irritating can that be?????!!! Fucking annoying and i just feel like cursing and swearinggggggggggggg!!!!! Fuckkkk!! ^%*^*(^@$^*&(*(( Ok that is bloody hell one of the reasons why i MUST get a bloody phone. I so fucking need a phoneee!!! Does anyone know my struggles without a phone???!!!!! Rahs!!!! Ok i better think of ways to psycho my parents into allowing me to buy that fucking phone. I so need it lahhhh!!!
I'm so sick and tired of PW. Fucking eating my whole life away. I can't wait to go back today, and sleeeeeep till tomorrow and i don't have to go to school tomorrow, cause it's promo day, which is also the doom's day, i guess. But i gotta go toh tuck for training in the afternoon, and later in the evening break fast with them. Aaaaand after the whole lot of fun on wed, thurs i'll know my fate, whether i get promoted or will i have to leave the school, and this will play a major role in my parents deciding whether i can get the phone or not. Well, everything. Fuckkkkkk. I really hope i pass, cause i put in alot of effort in accounts(as i aim accounts for my A level pass) and i know i did badly for mid years, thats why i put in extra effort for promos. Fuckkkk. My life is at stake. I really wish i get promoted, as well as i want the phone sooo badly. Ok i am damnnnn tired, and my brain is lagging, almost to shutting down. Day, faster end!
Happy turning legal, Adila!!!(: |
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| 20-a need to change! |
[Oct. 17th, 2006|12:23 am] |
Curse my stupid fucking laptop infected with a million viruses!! Raaaahs!!!
Anyways, i don't know why but i've been having nostalgic feeling, since yesterday. And oh my god! I fucking dreamt of wendy ng last night lah don't know what's wrong with me!! Hahaha maybe i'm guilty of always skipping class. But i have MC ok! So that is the difference between me and the so and so who is also always absent from school. Fuck i'm sick and i fucking hate it. Ok i've been procrastinating like alot and i have yet to do my I&R. Rahs fuck it! I have no bloody mood to do any PW work right now. Right now i'm just waiting for money to roll in, before setting out on another shopping trip to JB with grace!!! Yes pleaseeeeeee!!!! Oh my god i love that JB Image shop lah! Haha. Faddy the Singaporean ambassador of CrossOver in City Square. Cunt that shop's gonna make hell lotza money thanks to me. I've been advertising that stupid shop like nobody's business lah haha. Rahs! I can't wait to go there again ok! JB, anyone??
Ok i'm getting into that performing mood now, like how i used to be busy with so many performances back in secondary school. Man i sure miss those crazy times with azizul, rashidah blah blah blah... I love my kambengs lotza! And i love Ms Tan CH like i love shopping! Haha. Aaaaand fuck my mother is complaining my clothes are all over my room, on the chair, table, floor, book rack, bed, EVERYWHERE! Haha... lazy i am. So everyone's asking about that operation i mentioned earlier on. Okkkk once and for all i'm saying this, the op is not confirmed yet. It depends on my current situation, which will be thoroughly checked by a speacialist, to make sure that the op takes place only if it'd dead necessary. It's not confirmed, and i need ya all to pray hard for me that it won't ever take place, ok?
The haze is getting on my nerves and i feel like killing all those stupid farmers. And Christopher,THANKS FOR MAKING FUN OF MY INDONESIAN RELATIVES! They're not farmers you cunt, thank you. Apparently schools in Jambi have been closed due to the bad haze and stupid simon is enjoying the haze holiday!! And he's so free as to send me stupid annoying testimonials to me on friendster! Rahs! Aaaaaand i fucking need a fucking phone real badlyyyyy!!! That stupid phone i have i already sent it for repairs twice!! And i'm not stupid as to waste money again repairing when i know it's gonna die on me again. I randomly asked dad if i could get a new phone. He didn't say NO straight away, but he kinds said NO at the end. Ok that's better then saying NO straight away, like how my mum would answer if i were to ask her. Fuckk. Ok but at least there's hope. I just wish i fucking pass and get promoted to year 3, then i can psycho them into allowing me to get a new phone. It will be all worse (what i'm trying to say is NO HOPE AT ALL) if i fail and get kicked out. Then i will have to pay back the cost of getting me this stupid laptop and all the other expenses they paid for my school plus NO NEW HANDPHONE!! Ok fuck now i'm scared cause if that happens, i will have no more fucking life anymore. Sigh... On thurs we'll know if we get promoted, or kicked out. I'm as nervous as shiat now. FAIL=KICKED OUT=NO HP/MONEY/LAPTOP/INTERNET/SHOPPING/EVERYTHING!=NO LIFE!=as good as dying.
And i am still not done with my raya shopping ):
And i'm dreading school (credits to PW!)
And i am sick
And i have no money
And i am sad
And i wish i have no complications
And i wish i don't have to go through all these
And i hate my current pink bedsheet
And i still want Starbucks
And i miss CRB lotsza!
And i wanna go JB again, heh!
And i still have no money ):
And my lips are dry and chapped again fuck! |
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| 19-happy faddy! |
[Oct. 15th, 2006|04:36 pm] |
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| |  bouncy | ] |
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| | Tata Young- El Nino (however you spell that =p) | ] |
Oh my god! I swear this is the BEST weekend after a looooong time!! Went shopping at JB with grace yesterday. Oh my god the jam is like %^*@#%!!! And it was super fucking packed at the customs. We nearly died of heat and people. We were stuck in the jam for almost 2 bloody hours. Of course grace kept complaining. I was sick, and i wan controlling myself so hard not to sneeze into the person in front's hair. Stupid flu and first day menses took most of my mood away, and i was quiet most of the time. There was even once when i wondered about on my own. Ok anti-social mood lah. Hahaa. Bought shoes, shirt, three superrr hugeeee chuppa chupps and food. HAHA! I am soooo fucking smart, i went to buy ramli burgers, not knowing that even cooked chicked in not allowed into singapore. So i happily put the bloody burgers on that scan thing. Hahaha! Feigining my own death lah! They asked for my passport and took down my particulars. Hahaha! I'n barely 18 and this is the first time i'm travelling out of the country without any adults!! Hahaha! It was fun! Oh yes! City Square had some extension done, and oh my god!! I tell you the shops are superbbbb!!! It's very much like far east. And there this shop called CrossOver, which is like JB's version of Image/Sponge, and cheaper!!! Same stuff, and cheaper!! Yes, they have atticus, ethnies, mcbeth blah blah blah and those printed band tees too! And, addition, very very uber cool graphic tees, which are damn cheap! Cost around RM36++=SGD15 approx. Oh my god! CHEAP CHEAP! Must go there to shop!! Anyone wanna go tell me ok! I promise to bring you there!((:
Haha went JB again just now morning to collect my hari raya clothes. Haha nothing better to do than going to JB two days in a row. And next sat i'm going again lah! Hahaha! Grace had so much fun, that last night she asked me to go again on tuesday. Nothing better to do! Hahaha! I tell you it's so fun!! More girls please!(:
Ok, i gotta go. I'm going to bestie's birthday party later, soon. happy birthday atiqah!! (((:
Ok die. Have not done I&R, and i'm going out soon and coming home late. Rahs! Ok update later. BYE. |
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| 18-Friday, the Thirteenth |
[Oct. 13th, 2006|02:05 am] |
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| | school | ] |
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| |  and i'm sick | ] |
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| | Daddy Yankee- 2 Mujeres | ] |
Life has changed, and is about to change again. Certainly, because firstly whwether i pass this year or not, both has its own impacts. Secondly, i am certainly going to meet people, and hopefully make new friends. Forget those who are no loner my friends. Yes, true enough, we were all once so close, but what the hell. There's no use now. As cold as strangers, even though we all know it. I don't give two hoots anymore. I'm sick of trying. Yous except me have become closer to one another. Thanks to me, you've formed an elite. Haha. Everything happened overnight. And thanks for pretending ya. Ok whatever. I'm so over it already. Say whatever you want. In memories of our friendship, cheers (:
I want a totally new life. I need that. I shall do something more meaningful, instead of just relying on my unreliable friends(some)and fuck those who are a pain in the ass. How i wish i could shoot them all dead. Wouldn't that be wonderful. I wanna do more things in life, instead of this boring life i'm leading, occupied with school stuff most of the time. I wanna do something which i like, such as music, planning/coordinating events, performing and so on. Not that i haven't been doing all these, but it's on a very small scale. I definitely want to do them more. These are the things which i like, make me happy, and make me feel a whole lot better. I wanna be an all-rounder, like how i used to be back in secondary school. Hah and i definitely have to make more malay friends!! Hahaha! Hopefully the hollaback crew project will fulfill this desire of mine. I want more in life. I feel that what i'm doing now is not enough, and does not do justice to my "i love my life" life. I have to do more. I wish i could go back to those days being a facilitator at the mesuem. That was fun, with the company of Atiqah and Adila, meeting new people each time we were facilitating. I feel that i have to achieve more in life. Maybe i set high goals for myself, in terms of self achievements, but i feel that i have to make full use of my abilities, before i can say i love my life. Right now, i'm going nuts due to PW. I miss going out with my girls, i miss those great times when we went out, having fun, laughing hysterically, shouting out the lamest jokes in the world, gossips and laughter, we enjoyed them very much. But now, school has eaten up my social life, and also those stuff i love doing. Thanks to the hectic school timetable i have now, i'm unable to continue facilitating at the museum. I really miss all the great times we shared!! Oh, how i hate school now! I want i want i want!!!! Oh my god! Do you know how muchi miss you??!!! Do you know how much i love you all
???!!!!! Ok that's it. Im going to your party,bestie, whether i'm sick or not!! I love you too much!
I miss all my dearest friends. Hannah, i'm still so very sorry for that lousy clubbing the other day darling. I promise, the one on my birthday's gonna be much better k, hun! I miss going out with TLC, i miss shopping with gracie, i miss having fun and coffee joints session (hee starbucks!!) with KFC, i miss dancing with azizul, i miss late nights and desserts with hannah darling and so much more!! Soon, k darlingsssssss! (((:
ok, i shall re-post those pictures which can't be seen, i don't know why as well as more pictures of my huns and babies and darlings and sweetiepies in this post later when i get home. Having training later. And i'm going back home straight after training today. I feel too sick to have dinner with anyone. Ok, shall add on later, okay.
Bye. |
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| 17-a very random post. |
[Oct. 12th, 2006|07:53 pm] |
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| |  nostalgic | ] |
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| | Snow Patrol- Chasing Cars | ] |
Hah i didn't go school today. I have fever and a killer sore throat. I can't even talk lah. Woke up at 7.30am and called Fathiah to ask if there would be PW lesson, which die die i have to attend but luckily there isn't. Thank god many many!! So happily i went back to bed. I stayed up till 2am to do PW last night. Woke up with a super bad headache and throat was killing me. I've been resting the whole day. Hmm maybe i've been slogging myself out like fuck cause of PW till i fall sick. Having only 4 hours, or sometimes even lesser, of sleep each day sure is daaaaaamn tiring and undeserving. I so can't wait for PW to be over, and call for a celebration. Please god, let me have the will and strength (and brain!!) to continue running the last lap of this super duper brain-eating, tiring, troublesome, headache creator PW! Do you know how much i hate PW?????
Ok so tomorrow most prolly the bus to toh tuck campus is only for ake people. Haha shiok lah no need to fight for seats. Hahaha. Last wednesday was the first time the bus only had 7 people. Hahaha. Good lah! Tomorrow i'm in for a hari raya pre-celebration mood again, much thanks to Hafirah lah. She's darn cute(: Those cunts better turn up for AKE tomorrow. Ok let's hope tomorrow's session will be fun.
For some reason, i've been thinking about the past times in primary and secondary schools, as well as year one in MI. I can't help but feel so old (even though i wish i'm already 18). We had so much fun and i didn't know the real taste of stress yet. Looking at the photos we took, it's really sad to know that some of these people had left us, for new friends. Anyway, here's some.
haha. i wanted to post some of KFC old photos but i don't have them in my laptop.
Random thoughts i'm having now;
1. fuck there's school tomorrow
2. when the fuck am i gonna buy shoes and bag for hari raya
3. ramli burger
4. my long lost friends!!
5. i want more moolahs
6. comtemplating to ask my dad whether he allows me to get a new hp
7. sms someone to say sorry
8. fuck sorethroat
9. that fucking annoying pest who's been irritating me all these while
Rahs! Ok have to do work now. You kids be good, weekends' coming! Ok, BYE. |
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